Emotion: February feel

Walked out from the lecture hall,
I heard the song from the café.
Wondering, is there any occasion?
Erm…
No idea at all..
As I walked in, i can see there’s a banner
Oooo
It was one of the valentine events.
-Am not celebrating-
And what they did, everyone can choose n dedicate the song.
So, me, azay, andrea n shuhada decided to dedicate song for our course mates.
Since this is our final semester so we choose graduation song by vitamin C.
Gosh…as it started to play, we felt like… :’(
Never thought this will be our final semester n final February in Nilai college.
Besides, during that time the café was full with our batch.
Everyone stare at each other and smile.
A mixture of feeling-sad and happy-

gonna miss each of them

:)

me+wiwi+soo yi

don't sad when someone hurts you.

When you are hurts, pissed off and feeling down because of your friends what will you do?
Cry the whole day?
Doing stupid things?
Stress up your minds?
Gosh…
What a stupid idea.
Wasting time with doing things that will give u bad effect.
Cry? Why should we cry because of that? It’s enough to say we just feel bad about it.
I do cry sometimes, but when I think back, why should I?
It’s true it will be the way to express out,
And yet I ask my self:
did I cry when I pray?
When I pray to ALLAH did I cry as loud as I cry when someone hurts me?
Crying because asking for forgiveness and feel bad about my sins
And thankful with every single thing I have in this world.
Kadang2 kita lupa, ALLAH sentiasa ada bersama kita.

(Iaitu) orang-orang(yang mentaati ALLAH dan Rasul) yang kepada mereka ada orang-orang mengatakan. “sesungguhnya manusia telah mengumpulkan pasukan untuk menyerang kamu, kerana itu takutla kepada mereka”, maka perkataan itu menambah keimanan mereka dan mereka menjawab, “cukupla Allah menjadi penolong kami dan Allah adalah sebaik-baik pelindung”. (Ali-Imran :173)

Firman Allah Subhanahu wa’taala di dalam surah ath-thalaq, ayat 3

..dan barangsiapa bertaqwa kepada ALLAH, nescaya Dia akan mengadakan baginya jalan keluar. Dan akan memberinya rezeki dari arah yang tidak dissangka-sangka. Dan barangsiapa bertawakal kepada Allah nescaya Allah akan mencukupkan (keperluan)nya….

...Allah kelak akan memberikan kelapangan setelah kesempitan.(Ath-thalaq:7)

Allah itu sentiasa ada bersama kita,
Di saat susah atau senang, dan semuanya terpulang kepada kita untuk kembali dan mencari keredhaan-Nya.

..maka Allah akan memelihara kamu dari mereka. Dan Dialah Yang Maha Mendengar lagi Maha mengetahui (Al-Baqarah:137)

Pada siapa ingin kita berkongsi dan meminta?
Aku sering mengingatkan diri,
Allah pasti mendengar rintihan hati dan sentiasa kekal bersama.
Keluarga sentiasa bersama
Rakan karibku pasti ada menemani.
Tapi mereka juga insan lemah seperti aku dan mungkin akan pergi meninggalkan dunia,
Dan tidak akan kekal bersama aku melainkan Allah.
Teruskan berdoa dan meminta kepada Allah tanpa ada rasa putus asa
Dan yakin setiap apa yang berlaku pasti ada hikmah.
Aku juga insan lemah yang mudah leka serta alpa di dunia.
Dan tidak lepas dari merasakan perasaan sedih.

Dan, bertawakallah kamu kepada Yang Maha hidup dan tidak pernah mati
(Al-Furqan:58)

Segala-galanya di bawah kuasa Allah.
Kita hanya perlu merancang dan Ia yang menentukan.

Tidak ada yang menyatakan terjadinya hari itu selain Allah.(An-Najm:58)

Moga ianya dijadikan panduan kepada diri kita dan sentiasa ingat tentang kewujudan Allah.
Dan jangan bersedih bila seseorang menyakiti kita.
Kerana ingat hanya Allah yang berkuasa dan Allah hanya akan menurunkan ujian yang mampu dilalui oleh umat-Nya. Dan setiap apa yang berlaku pasti ada hikmah.

semoga Allah menjadikan kita diantara hamba-hambaNya yang sentiasa tabah, sabar dan tidak lalai dlm melaksanakan tanggungjawab terhadap-Nya.
::ameen::

Sunday Out

I woke up
Thankful am still alive and can breathe.
Staring at my aunties and I said
“Good morning”
Both of them just smile.
Preparing myself and ready for breakfast.
Breakfast…
Whole meal bread with butter and cheese…nyummy
And I drank a cup of coffee.

I put on my sneakers and ready to go.
As we walked to the station,
We were laughing and joking.
My music starts to play as I walked into the LRT.
I felt glad spending my weekend with them.

We window shop and walked as long as we can.
And my tummy said
“I need something!!”
And I know my tummy asked for food.
Look for the nearest restaurant
We end up at coffee club.

Enough…
Alhamdulillah…am full.
Thank you ALLAH ..
Continue our journey at the mall.
Stop at the haircut saloon,
And she asked for hair cut and treatment.
And she said YES.
That’s my little auntie.


while my lil auntie cutting her hair,
We spent our time at parkson.
Looking for new pans
But I don’t feel like buying.
But she does.
She bought new pans for working.
That’s ocu ida.
Particular bout her office wears.

It’s 4pm..
And its tea time, that’s what my mind said.
Stop at king’s bakery,
Feel like eating croissant and drinking Swedish berries.
Glad coffee bean brew’s for today was Swedish berries.
We seat there and enjoying our drinks.
While drinking, there’s Chinese songs played.
Not bad.
Am not good in mandarin but I can understand few words.

As we moved on, the Chinese songs still played.
While she’s looking for belt,
I stand in the middle of the crowd looking for the guy who sang that song.
He was there but not performed yet.
And I moved out from the crowd.
using escalator and go to the next level.
Continue looking forward to listen to his real voice in live.
And gosh!!
It was same as the recording.

And ocu ida said
“Nice voice”
And I answered her “yeah.. I like it”
I used her mobile
And directly connect to soo yi.
Trying to ask who was is abin (his nickname)
And she said “sorry I don’t know him”
I was like “ok, thanks”

At first,
I thought I can just download his song.
But I saw the booth selling vcd.
And we going so crazy and asking for the vcd.
Everyone stare at me.
I was like “why ???”
It just because am muslim n wearing tudung
Hahaha…
And surprisingly my auntie bought for me the vcd.
Alhamdullilla…

And this is my first time buying Chinese artist vcd.
His name was fang jiong bin
album tittle: 好人?! Abin (huai ren)
I do love his song.

Somehow, this is not the important
It just,
Never judge book by its cover.
For me, doesn’t mean you are not Chinese you can’t listen to their song,
Somehow we have to give a space and explore everything.
When you explore then you can feel the beauty in it.

THANKS to my aunties.
In this age I still can ask things from them.
How grateful am I.
Day by day, age change but my love for them will remain till my last breath.

p/s : lini, how I wish you were here..
I’ll let you read my new novel and listen to his song once we meet.

Things change

When I flashed back,
I saw you preparing breakfast,
And moms were not around,
And I said “I love your breakfast”
And you just smile and look at me.

I still remember when I turn thirteen
I do said “I don’t like my school”
And u said “leave or stay”
You hug me and said “don’t worry it will be okay”
You gave me the light to light on my way.
And now proudly to said “I love my high school”

You treat me like a princess when am not well,
And moms said “you are his princess”
I love when I fall to sick because I know you were there.
Even when am healthy you were there.
Listen to me and always on my side.

I have an excellent father.
His strength makes me stronger,
His words make me realize how big world is.
A man who teach my brother to read,
Inside and outside he was good.
He did what he supposes too.
I grew up like the other girls,
I don’t have castle like a princess but I do have pretty house.
Where I have my own space,
And am pretty sure I am happy with it.

When turn eighteen,
Everything change,
I don’t know who I want to talk too.
I know you always there listen to me,
I just need to stay stronger.
And you thought me to do that and be confident in life
I will never forget..
i will never ever forget
and will always stick on my head.
You thought me;
“ALLAH will always there to help”
“Family will be there when u pissed off”
“Friends will be there when u plays”
And daddy said
“There’s no reason for you to be scared and sad when you are alone”

-Silent killer-

Sometimes we never thought our words will make people hurts.
Day by day without realizing we are slowly killing them.
We are killing them with our words.
And it sounds like a silent killer and true to say it really happen.
We will never realize it till the last day.
When the time comes,
We ask for forgiveness, and begging them with our words.
Or even worse we never know we are killing them with our words.
Listen to your friends when they says “NO”
Even when they telling jokes or playing with words
Sometimes they are really meant it.
And that’s how they express it out.
A good friend will never tell lies.
They will tell you the truth when things come between u and her/him.
A good friends will never humiliate they own friend.
But bring them the light to help to find the right way.
You choose and decide,
You choose who is your true friend or just a friend.

a prayer for Mimi Fariha bt.Rozelan

still remember wani?
for berlianz girl 2001-2005 i guess all of us noe her rit?
one of our classmate :)
hehe...
how bout her second sis, mimi?
i guess i ever met up with mimi during our school bazaar 2002.
well, cute little girl and active.
during dat time she was well and healthy.
full with curious and wonder about how's life are and today...
She’s suffering with bone cancer.
2006, was my first year at nilai uc as a student nurse.
Every semester I went for practical, seeing patient and deal with them.
I do learn a lot of things.
Knowing my own friend sister who is suffering it remind me my patients.
When receiving the message from wani regarding her sister am speechless and in my mind just pray and leave the rest to ALLAH.
And till today mimi still survive and according to wani, she’s in critical stage.
I just get this prayer from one of wani’s dad friend blog.
And I just paste it here.
Let’s put our hands together and pray for mimi.
With god willing, ALLAH will listen to us.
For wani, stay strong my friend.
Remember we are here to listen.

a prayer for mimi fariha rozelan..

دعاء سلامة بوات اديق ميمي فريحة
اَلْحَمْدُ ِللهِ رَبِّ الْعَالَمِينَ وَالصَّلاَةُ وَالسَّلاَمُ عَلىَ سَيِّدِناَ مُحَمَّدٍ وَعَلىَ آلِهِ وَصَحْبِهِ أَجْمَعِينَ.اَللَّهُمَّ إِناَّ نَسْتَحْفِظُكَ وَنَسْتَوْدِعُكَ اَدْيَانَناَ وَإِيْمَانَنَا وَأَنْفُسَناَ وَأَمْوَالَنَا وَأَهْلَنَا وَاَوْلاَدَناَ وَكُلَّ شَيْءٍ اَعْطَيْتَناَ. اَللَّهُمَّ اجْعَلْناَ وَإِياَّهُمْ ِفي كَنَفِكَ وَاَمَانِكَ وَجِوَارِكَ وَعِيَاذِكَ مِنْ كُلِّ شَيْطَانٍ مَرِيْدٍ وَجَبَّارٍ عَنِيْدٍ وَذٍيْ عَيْنٍ وَذِيْ بَغْيٍ وَشَرِّ مِنْ كُلِّ ذِيْ شَرٍّ. إِنَّكَ عَلَى كُلِّ شَيْءٍ قَدِيْرٌ.اَللَّهُمَّ جَمِّلْناَ بِالْعَافِيَةِ وَالسَّلاَمَةِ خُصُوصًا لِمِيْمِيْ فَرِيْحَةِ بِنْتِ رُوزْلَنْ (3 كالي). وَحَقِّقْنَا بِالتَّقْوَى وَاْلإِسْتِقَامَةِ وَاَعِدْنَا مِنْ مُوْجِبَاتِ النَّدَامَةِ فِي الْحَالِ وَالْمَأَلِ.إِنَّكَ سَمِيْعُ الدُّعَاءَ. وَاغْفِرْلَناَ وَارْحَمْناَ وَوَالِدِيْنَا وَاِخْوَاننِاَ وَاَحْبَابَناَ فِيْكَ َولِمَنْ اَحَبَّناَ وَلِمَنْ اَحْسَنَ اِلَيْنَا وَلِمَنْ كَانَ حَقَّ عَلَيْناَ وَلِجَمِيْعِ الْمُسْلِمِيْنَ وَالْمُسْلِمَاتِ وَالْمُؤْمِنِيْنَ وَالْمُؤْمِنَاتِ بِرَحْمَتِكَ يَا اَرْحَمَ الرَّاحِمِيْنَ.وَصَلَّ اللَّهُمَّ بِجَمَالِكَ عََلَى رَسُولِكَ سَيِّدِنَا مُحَمَّدٍ وَعَلَى آلِهِ وَصَحْبِهِ وَسَلَّمَ.وَارْزُقْنَا كَمَالَ المُتَابَعَةِ لَهُ ظَاهِرًا وَبَاطِناً فِي سَلاَمَةٍ وَعَافِيَةٍ بِرَحْمَتِكَ ياَ اَرْحَمَ الرَّاحِمِيْنَ وَالْحَمْدُلِلَّهِ رَبِّ الْعَالَمِيْنَ.

Maksudnya:Segala puji bagi Allah Tuhan yang mentadbir seluruh alam. Rahmat dan sejahtera atas junjungan kami nabi Muhammad serta keluarga dan sahabat-sahabat baginda sekelian. Ya Alah Ya Tuhan kami! Bahawa sesungguhnya kami memohon pemelihaaan dan penjagaan-Mu akan agama kami,harta benda kami, ahli-ahli kami,anak-anak kami dan segala sesuatu yang dikau telah kurniakan kepada kami, Ya Allah Ya Tuhan Kami! Jadikanlah kami dan juga segala yang telah kami sebutkan tadi di dalam jagaan-Mu, keamanan-Mu, jiran-Mu dan juga lindungan-Mu daripada syaitan yang derhaka lagi degil dan juga lindungan daripada bencana 'Ain (pandangan yang merbahaya). Lindungilah daripada kezaliman dan kejahatan tiap-tiap yang mempunyai kejahatan, bahawasanya Engkau Maha berkuasa mengatasi segala sesuatu.Ya Allah Ya Tuhan Kami! Serikan wajah kami dengan kesihatan dan keselamatan ( Khusus kami tujukan buat Mimi Fariha bt. Rozelan), teguhkan hati kami dengan melakukan ketaqwaan dan istiqamah, dan lindungi kami daripada segala punca yang membawa kepada kekesalan pada waktu sekarang dan akan datang. Sesunguhnya Engkau (Ya Allah) Maha mendengar segala permohonan. Ampuni dosa kami, Ya Allah, Rahmatilahkami dan kedua ibu bapa kami, saudara mara kami, orang yang kami sayangi, orang yang menyayangi kami kerana Mu, orang yang berbuat baik kepada kami, setiap orang yang ada hak atas kami dan sekelian muslimin dan muslimat, mukminin dan mukminat. Mohon limpah rahmat-Mu jua ya Allah, Tuhan yang sebaik-baik yang mengurniakan rahmat, cucurilah rahmat dan sejahtera kepada Rasul Mu penghulu kami Junjungan kami Nabi Muhammad sallallahu 'alai wasallam dan keluarga serta para sahabat sekelian. Kurniakan kami agar sentiasa patuh mengikuti Rasul sebaik-baiknya samada zahir maupun batin dalam keadaan selamat. Mohon limpah kurnia-Mu jua ya Allah, Tuhan yang sebaik-baik mengurniakan rahmat. Segala puji bagi Allah yang Mentadbir seluruh alam.


Thanks for those who reading…together we pray for mimi fariha bt rozelan