Start working..and enjoying my life at taiping

Phew..alhamdulillah.

Felt glad I just finished my 13teen days off.

Am having great off days.

I tell you this is the best I ever had in 2009 besides, passing over my nursing board exam and get a place to work with.

I felt so free for the pass 13teen days, where I really had a good break.

I work hard and I play hard too.

Life will difficult if we don’t enjoy each moment we have.

Work is work and holiday is holiday.

As what lini said “no more pressure please =)”

Haha..i am trying on that..

No more pressure and try to make it just a part of my workload and my responsibility.

I’ve been staying here for 5 months…and I should have some fun and explore before leaving this place.

Roughly I have 2 and a half month staying here at taiping, perak before transferring to nusajaya.

So I’ll make sure I make use of these 2 months to enjoy everything in perak.

MEREKA KATA KAMI ::GAY?::

ini KAMI :)

weekend di cameron..sangat SERONOK...

ohh..

OH GOSH!!!

we R not gay ok??

kami cuma berkasih sayang...

KAMI memang begini :)

mereka silap bila kata KAMI begitu...

mereka mungkin CEMBURU..

tetapi tidak mengapa...

kerana KAMI tau...kami BUKAN begitu..

dan KAMI cuma SAYANG MENYAYANG.

hehe...

ohh...Mandi Bunga???

again mistake happen...and why everytime i will be the person who always stuck in it?

truth to said " i traumatize with paeds pt"....

i hate this...i tried so hard to enjoy n love my workload but still i will get the probs.

i just had this conversation with my girlfriends last 2 days :

lisz: u shud go mandi bunga

gee: ya laa...go buy bunga at shop than start mandi

me: are sure?? just buy and mandi?

sim: y not? just mandi laa...hahaha...

lisz: ya laa...ur november so shui..

mas: yeah rit...but no baca2 before mandi ka?

gee: apa mo baca? mantera kaa??hahaha

mas: gosh!!..how do i noe??

sim: no need lorr..just mandi laa.

lisz: a'aah la mas...mandi ja..

mas: ahhh...ya la tu...

we end up with laughing..

although we had stupid conversation but i love it..at least we still have thing to laugh and share...

thanks guys 4 being so supportive.

NOVEMBER TEARS

Life goes on…

My November start with mistakes that covered by tears and I hope it will be end with happiness n please no more tears. My faith will always to Allah. The only one I can put my trust and my hope.

Alhamdulillah.

Thanks Allah I have good people around me. Although most of them are far away but their prayers and spirits will always accompany me. Live life with lots of love..that‘s what my friend, mimi used to say.

When all covered with LOVE , you will feel the different in it and please mix with Patience too.

The beauty behind the “LOVE” :::You will never discover it unless u applied it.

i keep reminding myself:

I need to LOVE the one who create us-ALLAH- gave me the opportunity to feel the life and live with lots of LOVE.

I need to LOVE my families because they always standing next to me either good times or hard times.

I need to LOVE what I am doing right now to avoid re-current of mistake.

I need to LOVE my home so I can enjoy my day at home.

I need to LOVE my friends so, they will be always be there to laugh, listen, cry, hold my hands, advice, comment, compliment and everything. And I do believe; a good friend will never lies to you especially when they are commenting on you.

Those entire things who make me worried, dilemma, scared and anxious actually gave me new experience to face. I learned a lot and I do trauma because all of this.

Hope this will end ere---

"Using patience and perseverance to tackle obstacles will ensure we overcome any obstacle."

Catherine Pulsifer

PLEASE SAY NO TO TEARS

FEELS LIKE MY TEARS START TO DROP..

I HATE THIS...

I WISH I CAN HOLD IT...

i need to stay strong.

Life was not as easy as what we think off.

All I have to do just remind myself to stay focus and bring out the best in me.

I have to learn how to work under pressure from this I will be able to see my ability in doing works.

My mistake is a part of my learning. Avoid mistake as much as I can and work with strategies.

I need to plan it.

Stay strong masliha, Allah will always help you.

Ameen.

Big girl don't cry.

~my mom said "don't cry and stay strong" ~

"I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one."

"I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow."

how effective your words are.

There’s a people who hard to say those words and even hate to say or admit it.

“I miss you or I love you” a simple word which can affect on people feeling.

Sometimes you need to admit that you are missing or loving them.

It’s a relief when u expresses it and confesses.

It’s better to admit it now rather than later.

Say it the moment you mean it and not because you have too.

A people with an honest confession will never ever regret and will feel the beauty in missing or caring for someone else.

“Keep love in your heart. A life without it is like

a sunless garden when the flowers are dead.

The consciousness of loving and being

loved brings a warmth and richness to life

that nothing else can bring”

~Oscar Wilde~

Breaking all the rules? Can I make it?

Should I break it? Or stay with it?

sometimes the rules will help us but at at the same time it killed us.

Haha. Obviously I need to stick with the rules but I do hate to work under pressure and currently I enjoyed working with my colleagues.
Glad having my housemates here, they shine my life with jokes and laughter.

Syawal vs Working

Syawal is coming.

And this time, I will not going back to KK.

Am working ……….

Honestly I missed to go back but somehow I don’t dare to put myself in such a rush situation.

I know my limit. Can you imagine, the flight only available in morning and I need to find transport from taiping to penang airport. During that time I can bet that the airport will be full like hell.

I only have 4 days off which are on 23^rd onwards and I decided not to go back.

If am in nilai with 4 days off I don’t mind to go back because it was near to the airport and taxi is available but here? Gosh I’ll need to pay few hundred just to get me to the airport.

To be safe and save, I’ll celebrate syawal at taiping.

To my families; I wish to celebrate with u guys but not this year.

currently am safe :)

Day by day I learn so many things.

Life wasn’t so easy. In a second it can change to become night mare.

My carelessness made my entire day in a deep shit.

Because of simple things can make my day in miserable.

No one perfect, I do accept it. But sometimes, when things happen we just don’t believe that we made it.

Lucky this time am SAFE!!!

alhamdulillah~~

My mind stuck with that poem.

First time I read this poem when I entered the staff lounge at mixed ward.
It reminds me my parents. How I miss them so much.
I can see that, my parents are practicing this, even my uncle, my aunties and my grandparents too.
that's the reason i closed with my families.


If I Had My Child to Raise Over Again

If I had my child to raise all over again,
I'd finger-paint more, and point the fingers less.
I would do less correcting and more connecting.
I'd take my eyes off my watch, and watch with my eyes.
.
I would care to know less and know to care more.
I'd take more hikes and fly more kites.
I'd stop playing serious, and seriously play.
I would run through more fields and gaze at more stars.
.
I'd do more hugging and less tugging.
I'd build self-esteem first, and the house later.
I would be firm less often, and affirm much more.
I'd teach less about the love of power, And more about the power of love.

By Diane Loomans

Late Entry -i mean it-

Thanks Allah that I found u!
Happy friendship day (1st august 2009)
I gave my trust on you although I don’t spent so much time with you.
and I get your honesty.
A good friend will never ever looking down at her own friend.
2 o’clock in the morning I wish I could sleep but you in my head like a song on the radio.
All our memories kept playing in my mind.
It’s been so long we leave it and how I miss it so much.
A good friend who tells me what I should or shouldn’t do.
I appreciate it!
When I start to questioning she has the answer and reassures me.
Thanks my friend.
Happy friendship day

10 RIGHTS

I learn new things here.
Back to my college, we learned 7 rights in serving medication. But here, they have 10 rights.
And now there are 3 rights to be added.

1) Right patient
2) Right medication
3) Right time
4) Right dosage
5) Right route
6) Right assessment
7) Right education
8) Right patient to refuse
9) Right evaluation
10) Right documentation

Mentor-Mentee

My mentor? Hahaha…
btw, she’s a SN at the same time one of the supervisor.
Working with her makes my adrenalin rushes.
My heart pounded, although she said I can share everything with her either working or personal thing but somehow I need time. I am having tough time with adapting myself.
“I feel that I am not teaching you” that’s what she said to me since I was so quiet.

Deep inside my heart, she was totally wrong!!!
Teaching people doesn’t mean with a words but also with your action.
And she acts more compare to explaining.
As I said earlier, she was kind enough but somehow I still need to put a gap because in my mind she’s my mentor and she also consider as my teacher. I have to put my respect as my teacher. She’s there to teach and guide me.
Surprisingly am damn quiet! Don’t laugh guys!
I admit that am kind of talkative but…I just don’t understand, why suddenly on earth I couldn’t say a words and don’t know how to communicate. And it’s totally show my PR were damn worse.
But I am still in learning process. Observing and screening everything.
Hopefully everything will be fine and this time I enjoyed here although am facing hard time.

Screening and observing

Btw, I just started working at multidiscipline ward.
And my day starts with observing the ward flow and also the equipment.
And it is terrible enough but not with loaded of patient but because of their attitude and behavior.
Well, we used to hear private patient more fussy compare to GH.
And when you are sick you are totally in depressed and worried.
So, psychology u has to understand it.
And now I under mentor-mentee programme, which means I have to follow my mentor and doing things under her.
Basically, my mentor are helping me with the job description and adapting myself to the ward environment. Ultimately I have to learn everything in 1 month.

Searching for the time

It’s been so long, I didn’t update my blog.

Right now I am pretty busy with my new schedule.
Gosh! I would never expect my life will be as tough as today.
Living with new people with new environment gave me a new experience to learn and live with it.
Btw, I am having great housemates ere. 8 of us and 2 seniors.

Lucky dude!
and during the first weekend we went out to BERMIS POOL.

my housemates

Result release and my adrenalin rush faster and faster, getting nervous and worried. It’s a mixture of feeling. I couldn’t sleep well, my mind kept thinking of it. And it’s not fair!!! Because I wanted so much to sleep.. wawawa…
But it worth it because I get the good news once I woke up.
Alhamdulillah, thank you ALLAH… I passed my nursing board.
Congrats to my entire friend too. For those who couldn’t make it; there must be a reason why things happen. Pray to Allah and never lost hope on it.

start working soon!

Before flew back to kota kinabalu, my aunt and her family came to kl.
We went out and have a blast day.
It was great having my families here with me and spending time together.
Glad spending time together before start working! I’ll miss those moments.
How I wish my entire family member was here.
But I know it was impossible and am thankful to Allah because gave me such a great family.

Next week start working and me, nervous here.
I wish it goes as what I planned.
And hopefully I can learn a lots and avoid mistake as much as I can.
Dealing with human being is a great feeling.
And remember the mistake that you make can make them suffer for the rest of their life.
InsyaAllah I’ll do my best.

And for this few months, I’ll be having problem with internet connection.
I need to apply for broadband or try to look for wireless at my new place.
Otherwise I won’t be able to check my email.

may Allah bless me~ameen~

bedtime storyteller

Lini was my first roommate N when she left, qistina was in.
After one and a half year spending time together, am so thankful having her as my roommate.
She’s so kind and generous.
I knew that she will start missing me the moment I move out.
Yes she did miss me and same goes to me.
A roommate is the one you share your night and your bedtime stories. A story that will never ends and continue bring into your dreams.
When you really appreciate it you will feel the lose of it.

dear qistina,
wish u all the best! have a great day in Nilai.
keep working,
with god willing see you in august!
do take care!

Outing

Alhamdulillah. Am so glad! At last I met up with my high school friends before fly back to KL.
I guess almost every year we met up :)
I was so happy seeing those faces. ~i miss them~
It’s kind of hard for us to meet up and having lunch together.
Everyone is busy with their own routine.

We went for lunch and play bowling.
Although we have a short time together but it was an enjoyable and great.
How I wish I still have time to talk and jokes with them.

Lini: wish u all the best! It’s time to crack your head. Have fun at Mastech!
Aini: thanks for the keychain and wish u all the best in practical.
Mimi: Welcome to Shah Alam, enjoys your day and study smart!
Nana: don’t be too naughty!
Diyana: stay focus!
Asma: look after mimi at shah alam k!
Lianne, Siti, and farhana : no more holiday! Campus life started!
Alia and eeka: stay cute and wait for us at kk!
Baizura: your career just starting, wish u all the best!

With God willing we still can hang out and meet up next time.

My days

It’s been so long I didn’t update.
14th may- 2nd June 09
2 weeks holiday I spent it with my families.
Busy preparing for my uncle weds.
Alhamdulillah, everything goes smoothly.

3rd june-22nd June 2009
Had a great weekend wit my friends and cracking my head for nursing board trial and also revising for nursing board exam.

08th June 2009
My first interview in life (with Columbia Asia hospital)
The result released on the same week and I accepted.
Start working on 6th july.09

12th June 2009
I grow older and getting older.
My 21st birthday ~yahooooo~
Thanks to all the wishes and presents.
Special thanks to azay, andrea and qistina.

22nd June 2009
2nd interview (with Singapore hospital)
I got the chance but I need to take off my “tudung”
Hohoho…
Never ever.

23rd June 2009
Nursing board exam..
Lalaalaa…
How’s the question?
50-50
Honestly, confusing!!!
With god willing all my friends (me included) will pass the board exam.
Ameen.

Water Park makes us alive.

Each group from my batch (DIN July 06) that went to tanjung rambutan for practical

has a blast day at
Lost World of Tambun, Sunway City Ipoh.

at least, we have place to spend our sunday since we arrived on saturday.

It is not far from our place, about 10mins by bus.
it only costs rm 1 for the bus fair and we need to walk to get into the main enterance. The enterance fee is rm 25 for adult.
Not bad right?

A place where you experience lost inside it. ::huhu::

i love the nature behind it.

counting the money...ticket please...hehe

We start with the amusement park.
We play the stormrider, giddy galleon, and the dragon flights.

yao han n jenna was giddy playing those games.
While the rest of us, continue playing and enjoyed it.

here we are, preparing to play at the water park.

having lunch at the Waves Restaurant
..feel cool when we are wet.. :)

water park:

1. adventure river
2. cliff racer
3. tube raider
4. kids explorabay.

Although it consist few elements, it make our Sunday full with joy and excitement. it's not easy for us to get such a good time together.

When the local food take place in my hearts.

....bismillahirahmanirrahim....
it's been so long i didn't update my blog.
sorry guys...
btw, i'll start it with my days at perak.

Finally I finished my last practical.
Perak is the last destination for my practical.
A week there gave me such a good experience and exposure.

Arrived there on Saturday at 1pm. choosing for bed, unpacked my stuff, and performed solat.
And the moment u start to unpack your tummy will send message to your brain and ask for food right?
Haha…
I, grace and norzy were planning to eat at the nearby restaurant.
Unfortunately the restaurant was not ready yet, where most of it opens at nights.
We saw a bus sign to Ipoh Parade and Giant.
Instead of going to the nearby restaurant went to Ipoh Parade.

only us in the bus.. :)

For me and grace we've been there before this.
So, we are familiar with most of the places there.

It’s a good feeling when you come and see the place that you have been visited before.
The sense of belonging is there. You won’t feel strange bout that place.

Actually there is one thing that make I and grace loves bout Ipoh Parade itself.
You know what?

The “HONEYDEW WITH SAGOO”
(I ever tried at kl but not nice as the perak ones.)

Gosh it was so nice.
Even norzy also like it, although it was her first time.
You guys should try this out.

The next thing I like bout perak food is the famous “biskut tambun” gosh!!
I just love it. And the tambun biscuit have different flavour and manufacture.
And can u believe it; I bought for 2 boxes and another 1 packets.
I started loves to eat it since I went to Teluk Intan, last year with gina and grace.
we tasted it and it was nice.
I just love the soft texture and the classical taste of it.





For Muslim: No worry there is a halal cop by our Malaysia Islamic food department

Result released.

Alhamdulillah I passed my exam but it just not as what I target on.
-my mom's & O.u ida's said: be thankful to ALLAH-
honesly i just felt dat
Am losing the confidence of what am I doing for the whole year studying.
It’s true that become a good nurse doesn’t mean get an A’s results for the whole semester but become a good student that what we need to make self satisfaction.
I’ll try to stay stronger and continue praying to ALLAH,
and I still left 2 examinations to go on.
Trial paper will come soon.
It just left few weeks for it.

Chia yo!

Mothers word, Childs action.

Alhamdulillah.

I just finished my practical for one week to cover my community health nursing subject.
We have been posted to mother and child health clinic.
Well, it was a new experience to me and at the same time preparing myself to serve for the community.
Dealing with antenatal and post natal clients together with the kids and for those who are on family planning was totally challenging.
Although there’s nothing much to do, but the complication was there.
When you heard the words “clinics” you might be thought of easy works and relaxing but the true is kind of hard to deal unless you are really skillful and competent.

Not only treatment at the clinic but also working on home and school visit.
It was the greatest part for me. Where I had the opportunity to visit post natal clients and also school children.
School visit were totally made each of us laugh. When looking at those kids remind me my primary school life.
Where the nurses came and gave us an injection.
And now that’s what I did. Came to the school and gave them an injection.

While shuhada and hui xin preparing the medication, I and Wen shing were doing physical check-up from head to toes. The funniest part was when we asking them to take off their pans (boys).
Hahahaa….made my tummy giggle.

Looking at the kid’s reaction on injection was giving me different point of view.
Previously I was the one who been injected and now am the one who injecting them.
They character just captured my eyes to continue observing them.
Scared, nervous, sweating, quiet, talking, whispering and pushing each other, that what you can see in them.
Haha…
although there was a few kid’s crying but we managed to give them the immunization.

Well, am thankful because ending my community practical without problems.
And am truly thanks to my friends and my roommates, it was great having each of you.

U choose and decide

Unmarried pregnancy became common in our community now days, especially in rural areas. For god sake....
I was shocked when knowing bout this thing.
Married phase was the important part in life before getting pregnant.
Planning bout life and how you want it to happen.
It is so easy when it comes to words but the true was hard, especially for those who cannot control themselves. As a muslim make the Quran and Sunnah as a guidance and you will never get wrong, but when you leave them behind, things will come in differently.
May Allah bless each of us and forgive our sins.
Every people have the chance to change. Just think about it.
No one can help you unless you yourself want to do so.
You choose and decide what the best for you.

Wallahualam

Exam Fever

Left 2 subjects to settle on

before sit for the nursing board exam on June.
Consciously realize that I have few days to go before my final exam

for community health nursing and mental health nursing papers.
Revising the whole notes make my head spinning. -always-
Actually I still don’t have the mood of revising…
But am trying hard you know..

aja-aja fighting!
Am take things too easy,

especially when it comes to exam.

Moods of LAZINESS and RELAXATION are keeping playing on my mind.
But,I won’t let my final semester spoil because of those moodS.
Get to sit back and continue reading my notes.
Reminding myself why I have to do this and what I want to be.
When I decide to study means my body starts to work on it
and my soul going to receive it.

My exam will be on Friday (27th march 09) for both papers.
May Allah bless me and my other course mates.

with godwilling each of us can answer all the question

::ameen::
Apologize to those who feel hurts by me.
Continue praying for me.
Ameen

my exam docket are ready,

it just me need to be prepare.
:)

Friday night with the Messenger story

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Alhamdulillah ,
As usual during Friday night we are having yassin reading
I just came back from nilai uc surau from celebrating the Maulidur Rasul.
Although it passed few weeks after the exact date,
Well it is our honor to celebrate it.

We just listened to some history of our Beloved Prophet Muhammad SAW
And continue with some prayers.
At my previous post, I did say that my college didn’t celebrate it right?
Actually they are celebrating it but it just in simple way and not as a major event or even a minor event for the college. -huhu-
Might be I just don’t remember it -fewtttt-

MasyaAllah,
Our beloved prophet Muhammad SAW’s was the greatest human in the whole world.
-that’s my believe through my religion-islam-

here some picture dat my friend captured.

enjoy :)

the gentleman

the ladies

well, both parties increase in number only tonight :)

alhamdulillah

khusyuk lorr-neway we r reading zikir-Nice ::

My Ears heard My Soul felt.

Currently am listening to sami yusuf new album title without you -Year 2009,
Sami Yusuf is a British singer-songwriter, composer, producer and accomplished musician.
Present Islamic music to the whole world.
Sami is devoutly spiritual and often uses his art and music as a means of promoting the messages of love, mercy, peace and tolerance, whilst encouraging the youth to be proud of their identity.
More info visit his website: www.samiyusufofficial.com

one of his song from without you album.

Anything For You Lyrics:

If there were a single sacred rose

On a mountain top that grows

Where nobody ever dares to go

For you

I’d climb that mountain high

I would reach up to the sky

If that rose was your desire

Don’t you know that

I Would do anything

Would do anythingFor you

I would do anything

Would do anything

Anything for you
For you,

I would sail the seven seas

Walk the deserts in between

Just to bring you anything you need

Nothing could ever be too much

Anything to show my love

‘Cos it gives me strength enough

Don’t you

Don’t you

Don’t you know that

I Would do anything

Would do anything

For you

You know that

I Would do anything

Would do anything

Anything for you
For you

I would take on any trial

And I would walk on through the fire

You give me strength enough to face it all

You make me feel invincible

‘Cos I would do anything

Anything for you

You know that

I Would do anything

Would do anything

Anything for you

These things are nothing to

All the things you do for me

You are my dream come true

A love I never knew you see

I’d take on a mountain high

Just to see you smile for me

You make me want to be

The very best that I can be

I would do anything

Anything for you

You know that

I Would do anything

Would do anything

Anything for you.

Messenger

Bismillahirrahmannirrahim

Maulidur rasul..-isnin-

What make we feel happy with the day and date?
Haha…for sure we going to say “public hols”
Right?... itu la yg berlaku..asal tau ja ada public holiday enda kisah la apa perayaan sekalipun.
masa d high school (smp) memang BEST sbb setiap thn mesti celebrate
and i can feel the ukhuwah.
how i miss those days.-smp-
bykla persembahan+quiz+pidato+makan2...best laa...
ada pertandingan nasyid juga...-smua BEST2-hehe
aik..cam besala kan..
kelas2 berlian mesti hantar wakil..
dr junior sampai senior.
smua mo menang..eseh...
ingat lagi utk class berlian form1 2001
-esehh..beria2 cari lagu ada gaya lagi tue siap mengubah2 kunun lirik tue-
sampai mati aku ingat..i.Allah..
itula yg bestnya bila celebrate maulidur rasul d SMP =)
tapi skrg nie..
college aku mana la ada sambutan cam gitu..paling2 public hols ja la kan..
lepas tu..bila public hols..sendiri mo ingat laa...
pandai2 la mo isi hari maulidur rasul..
life is about choices..

Alhamdulillah,
Thankful to ALLAH,
Because I still breathe and can feel the fresh air.
Muhammad SAW, is the messenger from Allah.
He leaves us with Sunnah and Quran, But how many of us apply and read it as one of our activity of daily living?
He helps us to find the right way and become a good Islamic.
But do we realize it?
Do we appreciate it?
Maulidur rasul.. (12 rabiul awal)
What that’s mean?
That was the day of prophet Muhammad SAW born.
But he never asked us to celebrate it;
He just asked us to continue praying and make our day as a day that full with thankful and devotion to Allah.

Rasulullah saw bersabda

“Jangan memperbesarkan mengenai aku seperti Kristian memperbesarkan mengenai anak Maryam.Aku hanyalah hamba, jadi katakanlah,hamba Allah dan pesuruhNya”

(Bukhari)

Allah telah berfirman :

“Taatilah Allah dan Rasulnya jika kamu berpaling maka sesungguhnya Allah tidak menyukai orang-orang kafir”

(3:31-32)

I just want to share this with the rest.

Wallahualam
-selamat menyambut maulidur rasul-

Time to Work

Busy with classes?-i only have 2 hours revision class compare to previous sem-
Obviously am not busy with that.
My blank pages filled with all the revision notes.
Revision notes?
Approximately that is what we have been discussed in class.
How bout my own notes?
For god shake!!!
I still floating and looking forward to make it. -hahahaa-
(Hope so.)
Suddenly feel so lazy to settle down everything. (astagfirullahalaazim)
Time passed, without realizing left few weeks before my final exam for community health nursing and psychiatric nursing.
Just sit back and continue reading till I get everything done.
aja-aja fighting!!

Continue praying to Allah and never lose hope will be my strength.
My family and friends will be my reason to continue life.
Went for jogging will be the best solution for me to express it out.
“Sweats is the best thing when you’re depress”
Listen to my music will be the way to shout out.
“May Allah shows me the light and help me to get the right way”

:::amen:::

HE will give you the light.

Continue put the hopes and trust.
Never lose it.
Continue praying and Allah will continue listen.
He knows the best for us.
Bad or good there’s a reason things happen.
Be thankful and appreciate things.
When we put the trust on Him,
With god willing He shows us the light.
We just need to be patient and continue praying.
No matter how long we have to wait, there’s a hope for us.
Remember that.
This is just another chapter of our life.
A beginning with no ending,
It just likes:
Story books that won’t be publish out, cause it will never ends till we face death.

May Allah bless us-ameen-

Emotion: February feel

Walked out from the lecture hall,
I heard the song from the café.
Wondering, is there any occasion?
Erm…
No idea at all..
As I walked in, i can see there’s a banner
Oooo
It was one of the valentine events.
-Am not celebrating-
And what they did, everyone can choose n dedicate the song.
So, me, azay, andrea n shuhada decided to dedicate song for our course mates.
Since this is our final semester so we choose graduation song by vitamin C.
Gosh…as it started to play, we felt like… :’(
Never thought this will be our final semester n final February in Nilai college.
Besides, during that time the café was full with our batch.
Everyone stare at each other and smile.
A mixture of feeling-sad and happy-

gonna miss each of them

:)

me+wiwi+soo yi

don't sad when someone hurts you.

When you are hurts, pissed off and feeling down because of your friends what will you do?
Cry the whole day?
Doing stupid things?
Stress up your minds?
Gosh…
What a stupid idea.
Wasting time with doing things that will give u bad effect.
Cry? Why should we cry because of that? It’s enough to say we just feel bad about it.
I do cry sometimes, but when I think back, why should I?
It’s true it will be the way to express out,
And yet I ask my self:
did I cry when I pray?
When I pray to ALLAH did I cry as loud as I cry when someone hurts me?
Crying because asking for forgiveness and feel bad about my sins
And thankful with every single thing I have in this world.
Kadang2 kita lupa, ALLAH sentiasa ada bersama kita.

(Iaitu) orang-orang(yang mentaati ALLAH dan Rasul) yang kepada mereka ada orang-orang mengatakan. “sesungguhnya manusia telah mengumpulkan pasukan untuk menyerang kamu, kerana itu takutla kepada mereka”, maka perkataan itu menambah keimanan mereka dan mereka menjawab, “cukupla Allah menjadi penolong kami dan Allah adalah sebaik-baik pelindung”. (Ali-Imran :173)

Firman Allah Subhanahu wa’taala di dalam surah ath-thalaq, ayat 3

..dan barangsiapa bertaqwa kepada ALLAH, nescaya Dia akan mengadakan baginya jalan keluar. Dan akan memberinya rezeki dari arah yang tidak dissangka-sangka. Dan barangsiapa bertawakal kepada Allah nescaya Allah akan mencukupkan (keperluan)nya….

...Allah kelak akan memberikan kelapangan setelah kesempitan.(Ath-thalaq:7)

Allah itu sentiasa ada bersama kita,
Di saat susah atau senang, dan semuanya terpulang kepada kita untuk kembali dan mencari keredhaan-Nya.

..maka Allah akan memelihara kamu dari mereka. Dan Dialah Yang Maha Mendengar lagi Maha mengetahui (Al-Baqarah:137)

Pada siapa ingin kita berkongsi dan meminta?
Aku sering mengingatkan diri,
Allah pasti mendengar rintihan hati dan sentiasa kekal bersama.
Keluarga sentiasa bersama
Rakan karibku pasti ada menemani.
Tapi mereka juga insan lemah seperti aku dan mungkin akan pergi meninggalkan dunia,
Dan tidak akan kekal bersama aku melainkan Allah.
Teruskan berdoa dan meminta kepada Allah tanpa ada rasa putus asa
Dan yakin setiap apa yang berlaku pasti ada hikmah.
Aku juga insan lemah yang mudah leka serta alpa di dunia.
Dan tidak lepas dari merasakan perasaan sedih.

Dan, bertawakallah kamu kepada Yang Maha hidup dan tidak pernah mati
(Al-Furqan:58)

Segala-galanya di bawah kuasa Allah.
Kita hanya perlu merancang dan Ia yang menentukan.

Tidak ada yang menyatakan terjadinya hari itu selain Allah.(An-Najm:58)

Moga ianya dijadikan panduan kepada diri kita dan sentiasa ingat tentang kewujudan Allah.
Dan jangan bersedih bila seseorang menyakiti kita.
Kerana ingat hanya Allah yang berkuasa dan Allah hanya akan menurunkan ujian yang mampu dilalui oleh umat-Nya. Dan setiap apa yang berlaku pasti ada hikmah.

semoga Allah menjadikan kita diantara hamba-hambaNya yang sentiasa tabah, sabar dan tidak lalai dlm melaksanakan tanggungjawab terhadap-Nya.
::ameen::

Sunday Out

I woke up
Thankful am still alive and can breathe.
Staring at my aunties and I said
“Good morning”
Both of them just smile.
Preparing myself and ready for breakfast.
Breakfast…
Whole meal bread with butter and cheese…nyummy
And I drank a cup of coffee.

I put on my sneakers and ready to go.
As we walked to the station,
We were laughing and joking.
My music starts to play as I walked into the LRT.
I felt glad spending my weekend with them.

We window shop and walked as long as we can.
And my tummy said
“I need something!!”
And I know my tummy asked for food.
Look for the nearest restaurant
We end up at coffee club.

Enough…
Alhamdulillah…am full.
Thank you ALLAH ..
Continue our journey at the mall.
Stop at the haircut saloon,
And she asked for hair cut and treatment.
And she said YES.
That’s my little auntie.


while my lil auntie cutting her hair,
We spent our time at parkson.
Looking for new pans
But I don’t feel like buying.
But she does.
She bought new pans for working.
That’s ocu ida.
Particular bout her office wears.

It’s 4pm..
And its tea time, that’s what my mind said.
Stop at king’s bakery,
Feel like eating croissant and drinking Swedish berries.
Glad coffee bean brew’s for today was Swedish berries.
We seat there and enjoying our drinks.
While drinking, there’s Chinese songs played.
Not bad.
Am not good in mandarin but I can understand few words.

As we moved on, the Chinese songs still played.
While she’s looking for belt,
I stand in the middle of the crowd looking for the guy who sang that song.
He was there but not performed yet.
And I moved out from the crowd.
using escalator and go to the next level.
Continue looking forward to listen to his real voice in live.
And gosh!!
It was same as the recording.

And ocu ida said
“Nice voice”
And I answered her “yeah.. I like it”
I used her mobile
And directly connect to soo yi.
Trying to ask who was is abin (his nickname)
And she said “sorry I don’t know him”
I was like “ok, thanks”

At first,
I thought I can just download his song.
But I saw the booth selling vcd.
And we going so crazy and asking for the vcd.
Everyone stare at me.
I was like “why ???”
It just because am muslim n wearing tudung
Hahaha…
And surprisingly my auntie bought for me the vcd.
Alhamdullilla…

And this is my first time buying Chinese artist vcd.
His name was fang jiong bin
album tittle: 好人?! Abin (huai ren)
I do love his song.

Somehow, this is not the important
It just,
Never judge book by its cover.
For me, doesn’t mean you are not Chinese you can’t listen to their song,
Somehow we have to give a space and explore everything.
When you explore then you can feel the beauty in it.

THANKS to my aunties.
In this age I still can ask things from them.
How grateful am I.
Day by day, age change but my love for them will remain till my last breath.

p/s : lini, how I wish you were here..
I’ll let you read my new novel and listen to his song once we meet.

Things change

When I flashed back,
I saw you preparing breakfast,
And moms were not around,
And I said “I love your breakfast”
And you just smile and look at me.

I still remember when I turn thirteen
I do said “I don’t like my school”
And u said “leave or stay”
You hug me and said “don’t worry it will be okay”
You gave me the light to light on my way.
And now proudly to said “I love my high school”

You treat me like a princess when am not well,
And moms said “you are his princess”
I love when I fall to sick because I know you were there.
Even when am healthy you were there.
Listen to me and always on my side.

I have an excellent father.
His strength makes me stronger,
His words make me realize how big world is.
A man who teach my brother to read,
Inside and outside he was good.
He did what he supposes too.
I grew up like the other girls,
I don’t have castle like a princess but I do have pretty house.
Where I have my own space,
And am pretty sure I am happy with it.

When turn eighteen,
Everything change,
I don’t know who I want to talk too.
I know you always there listen to me,
I just need to stay stronger.
And you thought me to do that and be confident in life
I will never forget..
i will never ever forget
and will always stick on my head.
You thought me;
“ALLAH will always there to help”
“Family will be there when u pissed off”
“Friends will be there when u plays”
And daddy said
“There’s no reason for you to be scared and sad when you are alone”

-Silent killer-

Sometimes we never thought our words will make people hurts.
Day by day without realizing we are slowly killing them.
We are killing them with our words.
And it sounds like a silent killer and true to say it really happen.
We will never realize it till the last day.
When the time comes,
We ask for forgiveness, and begging them with our words.
Or even worse we never know we are killing them with our words.
Listen to your friends when they says “NO”
Even when they telling jokes or playing with words
Sometimes they are really meant it.
And that’s how they express it out.
A good friend will never tell lies.
They will tell you the truth when things come between u and her/him.
A good friends will never humiliate they own friend.
But bring them the light to help to find the right way.
You choose and decide,
You choose who is your true friend or just a friend.

a prayer for Mimi Fariha bt.Rozelan

still remember wani?
for berlianz girl 2001-2005 i guess all of us noe her rit?
one of our classmate :)
hehe...
how bout her second sis, mimi?
i guess i ever met up with mimi during our school bazaar 2002.
well, cute little girl and active.
during dat time she was well and healthy.
full with curious and wonder about how's life are and today...
She’s suffering with bone cancer.
2006, was my first year at nilai uc as a student nurse.
Every semester I went for practical, seeing patient and deal with them.
I do learn a lot of things.
Knowing my own friend sister who is suffering it remind me my patients.
When receiving the message from wani regarding her sister am speechless and in my mind just pray and leave the rest to ALLAH.
And till today mimi still survive and according to wani, she’s in critical stage.
I just get this prayer from one of wani’s dad friend blog.
And I just paste it here.
Let’s put our hands together and pray for mimi.
With god willing, ALLAH will listen to us.
For wani, stay strong my friend.
Remember we are here to listen.

a prayer for mimi fariha rozelan..

دعاء سلامة بوات اديق ميمي فريحة
اَلْحَمْدُ ِللهِ رَبِّ الْعَالَمِينَ وَالصَّلاَةُ وَالسَّلاَمُ عَلىَ سَيِّدِناَ مُحَمَّدٍ وَعَلىَ آلِهِ وَصَحْبِهِ أَجْمَعِينَ.اَللَّهُمَّ إِناَّ نَسْتَحْفِظُكَ وَنَسْتَوْدِعُكَ اَدْيَانَناَ وَإِيْمَانَنَا وَأَنْفُسَناَ وَأَمْوَالَنَا وَأَهْلَنَا وَاَوْلاَدَناَ وَكُلَّ شَيْءٍ اَعْطَيْتَناَ. اَللَّهُمَّ اجْعَلْناَ وَإِياَّهُمْ ِفي كَنَفِكَ وَاَمَانِكَ وَجِوَارِكَ وَعِيَاذِكَ مِنْ كُلِّ شَيْطَانٍ مَرِيْدٍ وَجَبَّارٍ عَنِيْدٍ وَذٍيْ عَيْنٍ وَذِيْ بَغْيٍ وَشَرِّ مِنْ كُلِّ ذِيْ شَرٍّ. إِنَّكَ عَلَى كُلِّ شَيْءٍ قَدِيْرٌ.اَللَّهُمَّ جَمِّلْناَ بِالْعَافِيَةِ وَالسَّلاَمَةِ خُصُوصًا لِمِيْمِيْ فَرِيْحَةِ بِنْتِ رُوزْلَنْ (3 كالي). وَحَقِّقْنَا بِالتَّقْوَى وَاْلإِسْتِقَامَةِ وَاَعِدْنَا مِنْ مُوْجِبَاتِ النَّدَامَةِ فِي الْحَالِ وَالْمَأَلِ.إِنَّكَ سَمِيْعُ الدُّعَاءَ. وَاغْفِرْلَناَ وَارْحَمْناَ وَوَالِدِيْنَا وَاِخْوَاننِاَ وَاَحْبَابَناَ فِيْكَ َولِمَنْ اَحَبَّناَ وَلِمَنْ اَحْسَنَ اِلَيْنَا وَلِمَنْ كَانَ حَقَّ عَلَيْناَ وَلِجَمِيْعِ الْمُسْلِمِيْنَ وَالْمُسْلِمَاتِ وَالْمُؤْمِنِيْنَ وَالْمُؤْمِنَاتِ بِرَحْمَتِكَ يَا اَرْحَمَ الرَّاحِمِيْنَ.وَصَلَّ اللَّهُمَّ بِجَمَالِكَ عََلَى رَسُولِكَ سَيِّدِنَا مُحَمَّدٍ وَعَلَى آلِهِ وَصَحْبِهِ وَسَلَّمَ.وَارْزُقْنَا كَمَالَ المُتَابَعَةِ لَهُ ظَاهِرًا وَبَاطِناً فِي سَلاَمَةٍ وَعَافِيَةٍ بِرَحْمَتِكَ ياَ اَرْحَمَ الرَّاحِمِيْنَ وَالْحَمْدُلِلَّهِ رَبِّ الْعَالَمِيْنَ.

Maksudnya:Segala puji bagi Allah Tuhan yang mentadbir seluruh alam. Rahmat dan sejahtera atas junjungan kami nabi Muhammad serta keluarga dan sahabat-sahabat baginda sekelian. Ya Alah Ya Tuhan kami! Bahawa sesungguhnya kami memohon pemelihaaan dan penjagaan-Mu akan agama kami,harta benda kami, ahli-ahli kami,anak-anak kami dan segala sesuatu yang dikau telah kurniakan kepada kami, Ya Allah Ya Tuhan Kami! Jadikanlah kami dan juga segala yang telah kami sebutkan tadi di dalam jagaan-Mu, keamanan-Mu, jiran-Mu dan juga lindungan-Mu daripada syaitan yang derhaka lagi degil dan juga lindungan daripada bencana 'Ain (pandangan yang merbahaya). Lindungilah daripada kezaliman dan kejahatan tiap-tiap yang mempunyai kejahatan, bahawasanya Engkau Maha berkuasa mengatasi segala sesuatu.Ya Allah Ya Tuhan Kami! Serikan wajah kami dengan kesihatan dan keselamatan ( Khusus kami tujukan buat Mimi Fariha bt. Rozelan), teguhkan hati kami dengan melakukan ketaqwaan dan istiqamah, dan lindungi kami daripada segala punca yang membawa kepada kekesalan pada waktu sekarang dan akan datang. Sesunguhnya Engkau (Ya Allah) Maha mendengar segala permohonan. Ampuni dosa kami, Ya Allah, Rahmatilahkami dan kedua ibu bapa kami, saudara mara kami, orang yang kami sayangi, orang yang menyayangi kami kerana Mu, orang yang berbuat baik kepada kami, setiap orang yang ada hak atas kami dan sekelian muslimin dan muslimat, mukminin dan mukminat. Mohon limpah rahmat-Mu jua ya Allah, Tuhan yang sebaik-baik yang mengurniakan rahmat, cucurilah rahmat dan sejahtera kepada Rasul Mu penghulu kami Junjungan kami Nabi Muhammad sallallahu 'alai wasallam dan keluarga serta para sahabat sekelian. Kurniakan kami agar sentiasa patuh mengikuti Rasul sebaik-baiknya samada zahir maupun batin dalam keadaan selamat. Mohon limpah kurnia-Mu jua ya Allah, Tuhan yang sebaik-baik mengurniakan rahmat. Segala puji bagi Allah yang Mentadbir seluruh alam.


Thanks for those who reading…together we pray for mimi fariha bt rozelan

Girlfriends

as i said at my previous post...

tadaaaa

I just watched bride wars.
Overall it was ok and out of my expectation.
To be honest

I expect something huge

or sacrifices or surprises from this movie

but it seems like…..
Not as what I thought.
Not get offended, am not disappointed with it.
It was just nice.

i can give 3.5/5.

A friendship between two little girl till their become career woman.
Their relationship was so close and sweet.
Argument between best friends,
And it’s all about their wedding dreams.
“June at crown plaza”

a scene from the movie

Be original, and be yourself, that’s the key.
Two things that I can learn from this movie is;
loving and forgiveness.
No matter how hate you at that person,
you will easily forgive them once you know that you love them.
And sometimes,
you don’t even know who you are,
but you girlfriends know more bouts you.


For those who haven’t watched it,
u guys should watch this movie with your girlfriends;
it might change your perception on how friends are.


Learning about friendship,

it doesn’t cause you a lot of money,

it just needs a piece of your heart.
Clear it and make yourself ready for any consequences.
A good friend will always be with you no matter what happen.
When you messed-up, she will clear it,
When you cry, she lend her shoulder,
When you laugh, she is with you.

She / he might leave you one day,

but remember all the moment you spent together.
Cause every moment will give you different experience.

A gazilion thanks to all my friends that ever lend me their ear

and be with me when i needed.

may Allah bless you guys.

LoVe always..xoxoxox.. :D

Scared-Duffy

I just heard this song and it is also one of the OST for bride wars.
It’s a new movie on cinema.
Frankly I like most of the soundtrack in that movie.

i do love this song sang by duffy
From my view,

it gave me good impression
And also let me be with her to feel how to face another day.
It sounds like a little girl

telling the whole world how important family and friends to her.
Those who haven’t listen to it, u guys should try.
I am planning to watch the bride wars since I heard good comments bout that movie.

The blank pages of my diary,

That I haven't touched since you left me,

The closed blinds in my home,

See no light or day,

Dust gathers on my stereo,

Cause I can't bare to hear the radio,

The piano sits in a shaded space,

With a picture of your face,

I'm scared to face another day,

Coz' the fear in me just won't go away,

In an instance,

You were gone,

and now I'm scared.....

Coffee stains on your favourite book,

Remind me of you so I can't take a look,

The magazines you left on the floor,

You won't need them anymore,

A towel left hanging on the wall,

No sign of wet footsteps in the hall,

There's no smell of your sweet cologne,

I'm lying here alone,

I'm scared to face another day,

Coz' the fear in me just won't go away,

In an instance,You were gone,
and now I'm scared.....

I'm scared to face another day,

Coz' the fear in me just won't go away,

In an instance,You were gone,

and now I'm scared.....

In an instance you were gone,

I'm scared.....

Just another day

Another day of the month,
At café,
I looked around almost all the table was occupied.
Everyone was laughing, joking, and teasing at each other.
How I miss my old friends here.
How I miss those days.
I guess they know who they are.
Thanks cause left me such a priceless moment.

And now,
I’ve spending most of my time with azay and qistina.
Great to have them here,
Their jokes make me laugh,
Their words make me smile,
Their action makes me never ever stop to smile and laugh.

my little love

18th january 09

::8.06pm::

my phone rang...

who was dat?

Click…
I just talked to my cousin, baby erra.
Glad to hear from her.
Even though I heard the back-up voices

but am happy to receive her phone call.
How I miss those days playing and teasing her.
This little girl gave new experience to me and my families.
She makes us smile and laugh every single minute.

A little girl who doesn’t even know how hard is life.
The only thing in mind is fun and enjoy.

Her confident make her to become braver.
Her minds make her to become imaginative.
Her power makes her to become a queen.
She’s the queen of the house.
Without her everyone will feel lonely same as a castle without a queen.

another princess in my life


Thanks to my auntie and uncle cause letting her 2 make a call.
Love u guys.